Well let me start by saying our home visits went fantastically !!!
Our social worker is a lovely lady, with an amazing heart for adoption. Our house was sparkling - well at least for 5 minutes, we even went out to eat the night before, so we didn't mess up the kitchen - well that was my excuse any way.
Now that is done, our social worker needs to type it up and send us a copy to approve. We were still waiting on one document - a letter from our doctor - this has been a very frustrating experience. Finally today the letter was done - and CORRECT (this time).
Yeah, our social worker emailed us to say that the home study was almost all written up - wow so exciting - but wait - she wanted to know if I had, had CPS clearance in NY, urrr what !!!
This was my fault - when I turned 18 I lived in NY for a year, so according to the new Hague regulations I have to have a CPS check in any state I have lived since I was 18. This is different from our first adoption, so I completely missed it.
I have to say I felt seriously bummed out for a moment - WHY, we were so close - and who knows how long that will take. But I pulled myself up, reminded myself that it is all in Gods hands and His timing - and ran out to get the application notarized and mailed off.
The adoption process is defiantly a roller coaster ride - full of highs and lows - but ultimately it ends on the most amazing high, and it is this that I have to keep my focus on. I know there will be more disappointments along the journey - but if my trust remains in my God, and focus on the prize (my sweet girl in my arms) I can handle any of it.
My disappointment today just made me think, how much I am already in love with this child that I don't even know yet - I long to have her here in my arms, in the room with her sister, at the dinner table with her brothers, and sitting on the lap of her daddy - where she belongs in her family.
As you may have noticed we have not referred to her by a name - that is because we don't no what it is yet. Mia's name came so easily - but when we know we will pass it on. I hope soon, as I long to call her by name, and pray for her by name.
3 comments:
NY shouldn't take long for clearances. We had to try to get clearances from Germany and Belgium since we lived there for a few years...never happened so they waived it. Thank you, God!
Oh friend--I completely understand the highs and lows. It is so hard. Hang in there, my precious friend.
Yes, Harriet is so wonderful :)
Can't wait to hear what God has named her. So exiting.
Love you heaps.
Hi! I am new to your blog. I can relate on SO many levels! We have been waiting on our CPS clearances too. It was literally painful. Ours finally came on Thursday, thank goodness, so we finally get to move forward. I look forward to following your journey to your little girl. Good luck with it all! It is nice to know we are not alone!
Michele
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